Part 3: My grandma Passed away

Finally everything settled...the most hardest part is when me make a finally meet of my grandma...when they closed the coffin....and the worst feeling part is when they start buried my grandma....I really felt I really really lost and never see her again......
Beside my grandma's grave is my grandpa's grave.....I'm so sad....now I don' have both of my grand parents...
Now I feel so blessed that I still have my bloved parents...my uncles...aunts....cousins....
My misson is now try to get all my cousins contact no...FBs.....and get reunion one day.....
So happy to meet them back....all grown up..some of them beauty....fat..thin...and the most important thing is...all of them are cwazy and funny..... ;-p
Hope this year Christmas....we can do a big reunion again...love them always......
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Part 2: My bloved grandma passed away...

Even though is a really...really sad thing cause our beloved mother...grandma...has left us...
But in these kind of situation I felt so happy...able to meet all my cousins...and uncle...aunts....and my other young grandma...and others as well.....
I felt like this a big...big.....family reunion......get to re contact my cousins and get the chance to add them on FB and phone no....
Thank you grandma...for giving me the opportunity to reconnect my long lost cousin and finally my eight aunts and uncles reunite as bro and sis to settle everything...
God Bless y'all and God bless grandma...may you rest in peace....
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May Grandma rest in peace...God bless

Its hard to expect when your one an only beloved grandma left has passed away.....But God has sent her to a peaceful place to rest and suffer no more....
Its hard also when you yourself is the 1st grandson that can't do anything to help and support the rest of the family members...which you watch your uncle and aunts fight and argue each other....about financial problem....and others.....most are them are not came from a very rich family...and its came in a wrong time where everyone not yet got their own salary.......I felt so damn guilty because I can't do anything or give more effort to support in this kind of situation......
Seriously I felt I'm the most useless person in the world....I can't help them when these thing happen in an emergency situation....at least if I got some money....I can help them to cover half of the expenses.....which they don't need to crack their head or argue to thing of these....
I also felt so damn sorry for my father because he is the 1st son in this family...and he also can't do much....but to low down his head.....I let down my father and the rest of the family members.....I felt so ashamed and I didn't know where to put my fuckin face.....
This a totally a lesson for me....which I can't be self-fish....to get what I want....but to ignore my rest of the family....and in the end...I can't help them at all....
This is a big big slap for me to wake up and in future... The most important thing is....family come first.....no matter what ever happens.....
I really hope after this.....I'll be more grown up iso so damn childish and self-fish.....
Sorry grandma.....and the rest of the family member....my dad and my mom...for not being responsible at all.......I really hope you guys can forgive me....I'll try hard to give you guys more effort and be the 1st priority.....
Sorry....
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New Year Resolution

This year...my resolution is earn more money....good vacation....be punctual for everything....and hope for good luck.... ☺
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Who do you think you are?

Yup,who the hell do you think you are? Now thats the correct question should I ask.
You unable to go out,you blame me... You unable to go out for dating with you boyfriend...you blame...and said you so damn lazy person!!
Hello!! Err...do I ever control your love life? Can I have my own privacy? And do I care that you can't go out on a date with your boy friend? You should blame your god damn boy friend! Why is your relationship are so damn boring!! Am I who causes this? Bloody hell!!! Both of you should fix your own problem! Not me!!
Even though we are best friend...do I have to ask permission from you for my own sweet privacy? Who are you to control my life? I got my own life,my problem,my privacy!! Do you dare to help me settle all my problem? No right? So......
Please do understand my feelings ok? Its not always you're the one who always get the spot light ok? Gosh!!!
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B737-800 9MMXA

Welcome to our new B737-800...
Hope this new coming aircraft can bring us a new big change...Improve our service and hope our management will do the same thing as well...
God bless to Malaysiaairlines and to all staff as well......
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My New Teammates At Service Recovery Team

Finally after suffer a year we got our team roster back...hu~~ But still I prefer the old team like last time...miss them so much...
Never mind...take this as a New Year...New Team...New Start...
I really hope my team will give all the support and work together as team work...
Be positive all the time and help each other... I really can't wait our first outing...looking forward to it...
And the funny thing is...we named our team.."Team Redah Jer"....hahaha....
I really hope everyone goes well and work together as a team...love you guys...

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Stupid or a Fool?

Am I such a fool?

or

Am I stupid?

Wondering why am I being so nice to people? 

Even though people fully take advantage of me...still being so damn nice to them... Is that stupid or what?

Hm...I'm speechless...helping so much people...is not I asking something return...but to appreciate me...

  Obviously when I needed their help

Ignorance is all I got or pretend don't know anything.

Yes I'm really angry...and I always wanted to reject or ignore their favor...

Its really hard for me because...they are my "FRIEND"...

When it come to friendship...I became weak...I will try my best to make them happy without saying "NO"... I hate to see their disappointed faces...

So I have to say "YES"... But when things turns on me...no respond from them at all....should I call them my "FRIEND"?

For me they are like brothers and sisters to me...I don't my status for them is what? A fool? Easy to take advantage person? or something else...

Sometimes I do really felt so disappointed with them...

Some of them like to force you...concur your life...meaning...You are my friend now and you cannot get a long with others...you only can be with me...the rest just forgot or don't give a damn with them!! All concentration is on me!! If not I will abandon you or you are not my friend anymore!! 

That is so damn self-fish to me!!!

And you are you on earth to tell me who can I friend with?

My parents didn't do that to me and may I ask you again:-

"WHO THE HELL ARE YOU?"

Or you are trying to use me?

When I needed you help...ER...er...er.....

Useless.....such as useless person....

The others always left a bunch of SHIT behind!!

I have to bare it all!! What an ass hole!

Shall I just ignore them forever or...

Seriously its hard to find a true friend in life...who can understand you...help you what ever it takes...concern you...loves you...

Or maybe I'm too nice to everyone...do I have to be bad...evil...and start saying "NO" to them...but if I say the "NO" word...I will hurt their feelings...

But then when my feelings hurt...who is going to help me?

Life is so damn complicated....FUCK!

Well anyway I have to suck it all....

What to do...that's life...

Hm....